It's so much different now whenever i view my profile on FS, MySpace, Facebook and Multiply. Last January 20, 20 years old lang ako and then the next day and onwards I'm 21 na.
Why is it that most of the people do go praning pag nag e-exceed yung age nila? Or making it too young pag tinatanong sila. Me talaga I'm looking forward na mag to-24 na ako. Not because i want to get married (but for God's sake,huwag pa po sana at that time) but they are a lot of things in my life that i couldn't just spill it out or even let it go. I couldn't find the answer till now and i know for sure at that age i can find the answers.
Why I'm so emo then?..i'm supposed to share the happenings of my birthday but it goes another way around. My celebration was masaya, pero super hindi ko maramdaman na birthday ko pala. Unlike the other years na, kahit Jan 1 pa ay super excited na ako. But on my 21st birthday, i don't why I'm feeling this emptiness. Shit! I'm trying to make a rapor with my dancemates, family and friends but I'm damn struggling inside.
Basta..the thing that matters was that on my 21 years (naiiyak ako hap!)
"Marami naring nagbago not just within me but with the people whom i consider or i owe a lot as part of my growing. May dumarating na bigla-bigla sa kadahilanan na di mo maisip bakit biglang nag laho. Kahit anong gawin mong paglimot, wala kang magawa kasi bahagi na talaga sila nang buhay mo. it was never on my vocabulary rin na sana ganito-ganyan, nasa na nakinig na lang ako ni ganito-ganyan. I'm having a hangover right now, not with alcholol but with this terrible burden inside me."
Basta super thankful pa rin ako kay Best Friend God for giving me a life that's full of realizations. I'll be fine soon....
