I don't have to say it. I just to have write. It was painful enough and now writing bores my heart into tears. Whew! I hate myself for feeling this way. Why I have to feel this? Why she's getting on my way?! Reading those stuffs, seeing some action, creating on a doubt of friendship. Damn it!
Now tell me? Am I still trusting the right persons? Lord the heck was happening? I treated them well and welcome them with the right attitude but why make things mess up? Betrayed or just me myself denying the real thing? I'm not saying in love (di naman talaga) I just don't want to lose the person whom I treated as a 'Bespren'. Well then, I take things seriously though it should not be that way.
That 'girl' is such a crap! Why she used to get what use to be mine? What the hell is wrong with you? Live a life! Leave my close friends alone! I don't want to be mad at you but you're pissing my damn ass off! Have a shame girl! Are you that desperate? Oh well thanks to you anyways because if not with my anger towards you, a friend and me won't fixed things to which it where belong..
* Give me time to fixed this...ma text nga yung kaibigan. (5 hours or so after..)
I'm a bit calm now (jealous?).Well he did say he like the girl but still trying to know her. On the other hand, he was afraid to know the real side of me and what he meant for me. And all I can say is.....
"...I know what you mean to me but all i have for now to say is that I don't want to lose you because I need you to be there for me always."
:'(
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