♥ Last Messages for 2009 ♥

* a posed for Christmas! ♥

These were the replies of my friends and loved ones sa text when I texted them for the last minute text of 2009:

Levi: I know ryt! haha.. i miss r lafing moments too glydie.. karakas kau mangatawa.. we laugh lyk ders no 2mro.. LMAO! Pee new yir! Mwaah..Ü

- she's my ever kalurkee laugh mate sa dance troupe. ♥

Karizza: ..gm un ate glyds? or wrong send ka? hehehe..bt anyways, hapy new yr! xoxo..

- i call her ballerina because she's one freakin' good with ballet.

Beryl: from now on gna col u te glyds! hehe 8z me beryl..

- beryl was my class mate of my 2 majors last sem. welcome to my life beryl!

Lindy: 'sme 2u ging..labyou alws.hapi newyr..wsh 2 c u,miz u mch..

- lindy and I were friends since high school and since then she's very special for me.

Taiza: api new year pud te glaidz! hmuah!

- taiza and I met during our ximbolo production. she happens to be our trainors' new dancer.

Uste: pee new yr pud uste hehe :D stay nlove ah. luvless mn gni ku uste. mm..

- this girl and I met last summer. we were classmate sa chemistry.

Shame: jeje..P nw yr pd ding..lage oi.. dugay ra bya q dha cdo gastay..pwo, la jd ta kbondng.. Miss u too

- shame and I met same with lindy. High School buddies! ♥

Honey: Ur wlcme ding. tnx also 4 d great frndshp. love u

- counting honey to us. (shame and lindy)

Kring2x: Happy new year pud glyd, akng gift glyd imu na gi p2s? ehehe joke ;lng.. msta na glyd? lod nlang u gift nku glyd pra pa unli.

- she's my blockmate and a close friend na pud.

Elro: pee new year pud! Mwah!

- my bebeh koh (not my bf hap) just our endearment. it all started when we watched 'you changed my life'. Bebeh koh was john lloyd and sarah's endearment dba?

Maam Wilgie: Since we hve dancd wd d d sme music. dat cant b change. d ka mgsisi na meet ko nmo. hehehe. hapi new year. 2. luv u.

- maam wilgie was our assistant moderator. very dalaga at heart.

Daryl: ebnin teh glyds! just red ur mssge. elcum! enk u too teh glyds, u'r such a frnd talaga teh glyds. gracias for evrythng! d fun nd d frndshp means lot to me.

- daryl belongs to the third sex gender. Hahahaha..and as I was saying, half of me was a guy. Ü

Hasan: Hapi new year bespren. Miz u!

- aah...bespren.

Jai2x: pee new yr pd glyd! ;) tc owez..nytienyt mwah2x!

- classmate pud..Ü

Nikki: apee 2010 ate glyds! I heart u. Ü

- my manghud sa dt aside kay lil sis nina. ♥

Nolex: Hapi new yr tanan.

- my kabaw friend. Hahahaha..miss you gwapo!

Neil: Happy New Year!

- ahm..funny to say but I met this very weird person in DV when my friends and I are watching this magic show. He asked for my number and the kind I was, I just gave na lang. Crazy!

Kuya Greg: Kapatid hapi new year. Tawag kosa imu ugma or later this afternoon. Tagae ko smart ha. Ala naku globe. I lost it. Mag.buy paku.

- that's what we call for each other. I made an entry about him before.

Julius: Hapi new year too dancer! tc. Ü

- ooooh! My player..hahaha. I knew him 2008 but we get to know each other well late 2009 nah. Hahahaha...i liked this dude.

Nina: Big siz! Ü HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2010 finally came. Hope everythingwould be better nad I hope exciting na year. Ilove you and I really miss you na big siz! Ü

- i love you corinna lago! the ever great daugther of our university registrar. Hahaha...

Clement: Happy new year glai.

- the horny one..peace!

Sir Sai: thnk u pud sa nyo trust....we love u no matter wat.

- the very talented sir sai. I love you sir!

Steph: Happy new year!

- my close friend sa blessed..♥

Kaye: * HAPPY NEW YEAR!

- koreana mate nako. sweet!

Rowell: , api new year. lovelotz. tc'

- I ♥ u dodot!

Abbe: happy new yr!

- i miss you abbe!

Jamela: ate gly :) Happy new year!!

- she's my lab mate in bio and we really clicked then on.

Aimee: Halu ging! misyah! wana grit u...may u hav blessed & prosperous happy new year 2 u and ur fam. Thank u sa frndshp kau sa tnan jd ging! Ur ndeed a frend! hop mgpadaun jpun and wlng mgbgo. tc,always cic. God bless u and ur fam., luv yah! . >",<

- the small but terrible friend of mine. Labyu aim!

Hearty: ,hapi new yr ading! ,Ü

- always be my love hearty friend! ♥

Weng: Happy New Year

- i don't what he meant for me but I appreciate him though.

JM: .manding, hapi hapi newYear, extend my regards 2 ate,kuya,mama,nd papa

- my ice breaker. hahaha..

Thea: te glydz ! happy new year ! Ü mwah. love u ! x) ge lang, mka kwek2 lang ta sumday. thanks ".

- my lovable bunso. I love you too!

Robbie: hppeee new yr te gee!.. Ü I hart u much!. stay pretty,wise and smart!. thanks 4 danicing wid me,roow! hope to dance wid u again..>.<>

- robi gurl..i heart you too! adik sa korean novels. lol.

Kuya-uncle Benjo: Happy new year dear. :) Stay d same cheerful, and bubbly ading..hehe..

- oooh! my ever mahal kung kuya-uncle. His reply touched my heart jud. :'(

* 2009 already ended and I messed up at some point. I hope 2010 will not give me lots of pain and heart aches. Hahaha...meyganun? Kalurkee!

♥ Who said I'm not? ♥

* I just woke up early in the morning with this picture..♥

I know some people are so suck with my attitude and yes I admit it that I have a very messy attitude except to those who would stand to the belief that I am good. It's not really easy to please people and it's not my attitude though to please everyone. I don't like either to act as if I'm this or that though in such I'm a jerk.

Plenty of Insecurities. Who said I haven't? Insecurities with my height, forehead, singing, dancing, teeth, writing. But definitely I'm not insecure with my booby. Damn! I'd rather have this boobs forever than having one like Super G. Ouch! Heavy! Hahaha...

I'm not a good daughter. Who said I'm not? As my mama would say I'm the maldita, papa said I'm the swa-il, ate said I'm the most lazy. O diba? Perfect ingredients! At some point it's an ouch but I don't mind them at all. They were the ones who raised me right? Who's to blame? But I'm not saying my parents are the worst parents of course they're not! I guess environment should we point at these time. Lets put it this way, how can they see my existence if all their minds was my shortcomings? Not fair isn't it? But my parents never raised me to be materialistic. I just love to mix my life with fashion. Fashion in a sense simple but formal.

I'm not a good student. Who said I'm not? Oh well to rate my performance, it was flap! I was once an honor student but then on I was the terrible ex-dean's Lister. I know I can stand on a debate, I can explain the theory of a particular theorist but all those stuffs? I could not just hit it!I'm afraid that people will reject me with my point of view and explanation. Oops! Forgot to say, never faced me with digits. I get choked!

I'm not a good friend. Who said I'm not? Come on people. We can never say we're all a good Samaritan. Of course not! We back bite our friends when he/she does something that irritates our eyes right? Friends are the ones who spices our lives. My friends are all great, to those whom I heartily considered 'friend' and the ones I back bite? You know who you are! And the stupid ones? For all I care! But damn! I care for my friends even the ones who failed me.

I'm a no good dancer. Who said I'm not? Okay, I've been dancing my life since gradeschool. Well with much respect to those who appreciate my dancing before, thank you very much but time goes by and everything changed. Yes..i've been into 3 dance concerts and different competitions but still I count myself as a trainee. To be pro? I don't know! Now I'm still dancing my feet on. I still have the heart and passion for it but I'm losing the sense of trust with my dancemates. Urgh!

I'm a liquor lover. Who said I'm not? Hahahaha...let me just clear people. There's nothing to be ashamed of my part if I drink. I started to drink at the age of 21 so don't get me wrong. It does hurt my pride when they say I'm palahubog because indeed I'm not. I know where and when to messed up. But if getting drunk would people noticed my existence then be it!

Im a no good lover. Who said I'm not? Sounds of bitterness? No..I've been single for almost 5 years now and you know why? Because I'm afraid to lose a part of myself. Teenagers and lovers in this generation are so horny that they were like some dogs in the street. Sorry for the word. There's nothing wrong if they expressed they love through sex but come on, if temptation caught up we can always prevent ourselves from it. Stupid you are blame each other when things went wrong. Getting pregnant and all that stuff. You all losers!

I just couldn't understand others, they know for themselves that they hate certain someone then why still cling to it? I know few people like me and a lot hate me. So why make your way crazy with me? Leave my page or else delete me in your friends list. As simple as that. Everything is in your control, just a press on your keyboard and then your free. Hahai...I'm writing this because of my condition right now and my heart just manipulated my mind. So blame it to them! I felt betrayed and taking forgranted.....who said I'm not? :'(

♥ Happy Holidays! ♥

* that was actually a free greeting of this chocolate pop which kuya gigi bought for me when we were in champs before he leaves for Butuan. ♥

Well, happy-sweet-holiday-season everyone! Though we don't have the perfect noche buena but our hearts was filled oh yummy-delicious love for each other. Christmas though it's not about having the most expensive present you can give or receive but it's all about the love for family and of course God. I love you Lord my original 'Bespren!'.

I'll post a blog soon about the happenings of our celebration..Merry Christmas and spread the love! ♥

♥ Socks for my Present ♥

Yipee! I got a three new pair of socks. Mama bought it yesterday when we we're in Ketkai. I know it's too mababaw for me to act like this, too childish isn't it? Hehehe..funny though! ♥ A new socks for Christmas? I wasn't even told when I us a kid that when you put a sock outside your door, Santa will put a present then at midnight. Even if I was told to, I guess I won't live with it. Hahaha..I'm no conformist you know.

I love my new kitten-inspired socks. Cold breeze at night and dawn? Worry no more because kitty socks is on the go. Hahaha...

OOh! T'was taken last March when we're in Camiguin. I really want to ease at the beach and flaunt my two piece under the heat of a freakin' sun! My body complex and structure for now are too perfect for a beach babe. Whew! Hahahahaha..mey ganun? kaloka!

I'm being narcisstic lately. Hala! ♥

♥ Dumb or Numb? ♥

The bitchy I was on that pic..am I? It's just a sudden product of boredom kanina. I can't think of any stuffs but to polish my nail and color my lips 'Red'. The color of love! Did I state it right? Love? I don't think so..but I was taught by my teacher in grade school that it was the color of 'sacrifice' and 'bravery'.

I sacrificed my happiness and with it, I raised the flag of bravery. ♥

Dumb or Numb? I was the dumb and he was the numb. Jerk!

* goodnight or dawnie? It's passed 2 am and my butt is still chillin'. Bye!

♥ Living my Life! ♥

Hello my blog! Oh I've been idle for weeks bah? I've been busy rehearsing for our shows. The photos you've seen was from all of my latest activities. We had our dance concert, an invitation from "Pilipinas Got Talent', my oh soo lil sistah on the dance troupe's birthday, the yearly event of our school which was the Xavier Days and the raket that I got with the doctors.

XUCDT and STCC: 'XIMBOLO' (Nov. 26-27, 2009)

After all the early morning practices, fare problem, worry no more because the show was all ready through. Every production that we have, what I love most was the rehearsal especially the general run through because it is where I measure my patience towards my dance mates and of course towards myself. The cramming and last minute preparations makes my way a hell one. Ximbolo production, I consider it as my best performance so far as a dance troupe member. It was my first time to experience dance-theater and inviting my parents and seeing them on our show was the best reward ever..

Well, what matters then was the attitude after the show. I know some of my dance mates has this 'lumalaki-ang-ulo-syndrome'. Hmmm..don't like it!

Pilipinas Got Talent: (Nov. 25, 2009)

*laughing...hahahaha. I'm laughing because I can't believe it the hell we were joining with it. Not on our group to join but one of the producer ba yun o ewan ano siya urges us to join and he even reassure us that 70% guarantee that will get into the finals. Roow na dayon!

It's just so nice to recall what we've been through on and before the audition. We practiced at the dance hall with the weather's insanity. Too cold and we slept at around 3 am and woke up by 5 am. Kaloka! I love the camaraderie moments with the PGT Staffs’

Thank you po! In or out man kami, the experience was awesomely great!

*..last Dec. 18, 2009. They texted our trainor saying that we passed the audition and we'll be joining the finals. OMG! Sharon Cuneta will be one of the judges. So? Kulba?

Nina's Birthday: (Nov. 29, 2009)

"I discovered something about myself..I discovered something about the people I trust and whom to trust...." Those lines were the thing I sigh to myself the next day after Nina's birthday. I mean it, I got drunk and too wasted to the extent that I can no longer stand straight and my mind won't work as normally as I used to. It's the first time actually I got so drunk!

That night I set my mind that I'll drink as in talagang inom na parang wala nang bukas but to know who were the persons that I can trust. When liquor conquers my consciousness, I lose my control. I was lying in the sofa when I hear these two buddy (I won't mention name nah) were having a conversation I won't go on with the details but what I hear that night will always linger on my conscious and it was one of the reason why I've been so silent after the party.

Forget the very wake up call sa akin stuffs and hello happy moments. When were on a party it's inevitable that we met common friend of these and that. I met this dude whom I consider as a very thoughtful dude. I just met him but his concerns that night was somehow a whip of remedy from my agonies. He even coined me 'Tinker Bell' (isn't that cute?) now I call him 'Peter Pan'. We didn't just introduced formally but I appreciate his presence. Thank you peter pan where ever you are. ♥

XU Days '09: Engage (Nov. 02, 2009)

This was crazy! We rehearsed the dance for just a day and then voila it's show time. We danced contemporary with a concept of 'Book Dance'. I'm a bit nervous because my system was still adjusting with contemporary. So I have to do it double time.

Well! Well! Well! Bravo! I made it despite the burdens that I have. I was able to chained my fantasy and reality.

Madonna and Polymedic Doctors: (Dec. 1-9, 2009)

I superb love the raket that our choreographer assigned me. I was assigned for the Madonna and Child Maternity Hospital. Two thumbs up to all the doctors who were so accommodating to me and my company. I really like doctor Queenie Quino. She's too kind and very bubbly. I love you all dokie!

The Polymedic doctors were the very maarte and only few are too approachable. Kakabanas! They're just good in complaining as if they were dancers. Urgh!

We performed as well during their christmas party. Sobrang saya! ♥

New Friendship:

Ate Ara is the brother of my bespren. During the rehearsal for our dance concert we don't usually spend time talking things or all that girly stuffs. But after the show, we then clicked! I love her for being a humble and the one I admire when it comes to dance. She's not afraid to be lift up in the air or what which was the soo opposite of me. I wished I was like her. hahahaha..poor me!

Hopefully our friendship grows as what I have with my other dance mates. My lil sistah like her and we do both like her. ♥

* those were the things that had happen and kept me tucked-in with my schedules. Whew! masarap maging busy kung alam mong kelangan mong maging busy kasi may mali na sa paligid mo. :)