A Blessing to Cry! ♥

I cried the other night with a feeling of bothered and distracted. I was to bothered by Amer’s behavior these past few days. I know he is the person who jokes a lot but aloof most of the time. Pero never ako na bother with his attitude na ganyan.

I saw him last Wednesday outside their house, pero iba yung pakiramdam ko when I saw him that aftie. I went up on him and everything turns out right but at the back of my mind I know there is something wrong. And so i’d just go on.

Thursday evening, I get even more distracted with his behavior na. I asked him but he insisted everything was fine. I sent him a message on FB about my sentiments and concerns about our nature. He replied but I was not convinced by it. Confrontation and clarification happened last night and it turns out well, thank God!

Whatever reasons he gave why we were caught on that situation was a lesson for me and for him as well. I always tell myself that the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E and I’m doing my best to gave him when I was not hooked by my schedule. I know he did it intentionally but he made me cry unintentionally and by nature I was a crybaby you know. He made me cry a lot of times na but not a tears of pain but most of it a tears of joy.

Our relationship was not perfect. We have our flaws but we were just so good in patching our downfalls. We never raised our voice when someone would want to say something and we openly shares our emotion. So, it goes to show that the R-E-S-P-E-C-T is there.

Ang gusto ko lang naman talaga sabihin niya sa akin kung may mali sa mga ginagawa at kilos ko. I kept on telling him na I’m not perfect. I really value it pag pinagsasabihan niya ako because through it I can see that I do exist in his eyes not by my good acts but more of my bad acts and thats what he did last night.

My tears never blamed him of what had happened, its just a wake up call that were just rolling the string of our relationship no matter how much we loved each other. It has been a blessing to cry for him. Love you lolo Amer!

* naku Amer, ang hirap kaya na I want to hug you but I just can’t because papa was there..